Dear Mom,

Mar 28, 2011   //   by Rick Dancer   //   Blog  //  3 Comments

You’ve been gone from this earth a year today and I just wanted to drop you a note to tell you how I’m doing. I can’t tell you everything because there are some things I just don’t want you to know.

I got through the cancer treatment and everything is okay. My PSA is down from what it was but the last test my numbers have gone back up so that has been a bit of a set back. The doctor says it’s to be expected but you know how I am and failure is…..well, failure.

I’m getting better at failing mom. I tried to put up some shelves the other day and messed up part of the project but was able to simply let it go. I didn’t stew over it or beat myself up.

Since your death a couple of questions have come up and I’m not sure why you left them unanswered. I guess we’ll have to talk about that when I get there. No one ever means to leave loose ends but it happens and sometimes they hurt.

Kathy is doing fine. She’s painting and really good at it. Jake has a girlfriend and we really like her. Jess does too and there’s something else cool happening to him but I can’t tell you yet. I guess you probably already know. Does God tell you everything that happens down here? I’m just wondering. Do you get to see the final outcome of things like He does or do you care once you get to Heaven?

I still hear songs on the radio and think of you. Hope you are doing well. What a stupid thing to say you are in Heaven of course you are doing well.

Sorry for my lack of knowledge remember I’m still here and you have graduated to the next thing.

Mom, when you talk to God can you ask Him to make sure my cancer is gone? Also, if He could watch over the health of Kathy and the boy’s I’d appreciate it.

I’ll talk with you soon but not too soon, I’ve got too much still left to do here, I hope.

Rick

3 Comments

  • Aleen Ferry-Field March 28, 2011 at 7:47 am

    Dear Rick: I just read your beautiful letter to your Mother. Oh how you loved her!! Just know that she is hovering over you each and every day. She loves getting your letters. I have a lovely daily devotional entitled “Jesus Calling” which was written by Sara Young. Each and every day’s words seem to touch our heart in a way that lets us know that God knows our needs way before we ask. But He wants us to ask.

    Here is one that I just read and thought I needed to share it with you.

    When things seem to be going all wrong, stop and affirm your trust in Me. Calmly bring these matters to ME, and leave them in My capable hands. Then, simply do the next thing. Stay in touch with Me through thankful, trusting prayers, resting in My sovereign control. Rejoice in Me—exult in the God of your salvation! As you trust in Me, I make your feet like the feet of a deer. I enable you to walk and make progress upon your high places of trouble, suffering, or responsibility. Job: 13:15 (NKJV); Psalm 18:33; Habakkuk 3:19 (AMP).

    God be with you, Rick. May HE shine His light before you so you may follow HIM.

    Arleen Field
    Your Sister in Christ

  • Laura Woodward March 28, 2011 at 10:59 am

    I read this to my mom and she said your mom was such a fun lady! Of course when your parents were teachers, they weren’t much older than their students! The day will come when I will want to ask questions too and I am trying to ask as many as I can while I still have them with me. Thanks for sharing your soul with us this morning.

  • juliet dwyer March 28, 2011 at 11:29 am

    Arleen that just blessed my socks offf. Rick thank you for the letter. I will start writing to my dad who I lost 2 years ago. And Rick you are a tremendous success. Just like you love your children, unfailingly, so God and your mom love you. Juliet (a kindergarten student of your mom’s)

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